Dear Martin,

So it’s been over a year since we first met. And I’m not sure exactly what happened to us. I still love you. And I’m still in love with you.  I wish you would give us a chance to talk. I wish you would tell me what was wrong. You always said that communication was important. The only thing that I know is that I miss you..

I don’t know whether you read the email that I sent to you, explaining how I messed things up. There was more that I wanted to tell you.

Everything around me is reminding me of you..

The new Star Trek Beyond movie will be released this coming Friday, and I know how much you love Star Trek.  Did you like the Star Trek birthday cake photo that I designed for your birthday?

Star Wars Celebration Europe 2016 was last week and it reminded me of our shared passion for Star Wars, how you taught me about Lawrence Kasdan, and how we first started connecting.

The Calgary Stampede reminded me of you. I remember asking you for a special souvenir for our bedroom.

Build-A-Bear released more Star Wars bears and this reminded me of the Chewbacca that I bought for us to stuff together.

I purchased this perfect pillow for you to sleep with when we were not together, and I was waiting to give it to you. The wording on the pillow is perfect for us.

Martin, I am very sorry for whatever I said or did that maybe hurt you or made you angry with me. You are the last person in the world whom I would ever want to hurt. I love you so much. I have been crying every day – my “tearful moments” – since we last spoke. And time has not made my feelings go away.








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